景

What i frequently do recently is standing out of my room and staring at the view in front of me: a narrow path connecting blocks , some faint dim roadlights and high buildings far away. especially at night.
I feel lonely. in this city, i am so on my own.

i was trying to make a phone call. the whole day. more than 20 times.
the phone over the line was always off.
I am sick of the automatic answering machine.
I wish a lot of things to be different but i am diffident too. I so hope someone can be more certain than me hence I dont need to scare.
now i can even not control a phone call.

I am not avaricious. 你比谁都懂。