FUSSY & IRRELEVANT

I DON'T NEED ANYONE TO BE "proud of" ME .
PLEASE.....!
Unless you are my family or my the other half.
Thank you.

I am a pedestrian

Today I went to restaurant called"One On the Bund".
I came out of MRT from Ocean Tower, it is right opposite the place I was going. BUT!!
I just could not cross the street! There is NOOO crossroads nearby, and there are banisters to prevent people from crossing.
Stupid Singapore transportation engineers!
I had to walk another 15 minutes just to get to the other side of the road.

That's one of the many things that I hate big cities.

loneliness issue

Taken from that lovely little store.
I wish the book in my hand is some lovely little prose works or lovely little collection of photographs instead of red bible. I need to get rid of it by the end of dec. I will.
I need to read some real books. badly.
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there are a few movies watched and to watch.
iS it true all those extraordinary people ought to be alone?
To bear loneliness is a must.
If that's the case, i have passed the first test.
but i never meant to be extraordinary.
so can this loneliness end soon...?

Coming soon.

This coming Saturday . with AJ.
I guess we will cry in the movie theatre that day...

I have a NUS Baggie

It was an accident.

Life is a gamble

tonight called mom.
she used some facts and stories trying to persuade me to think about every decision carefully and not to gamble.
well, i know there are scary consequences of making one single mistake.
but no one knows the outcome if he never tries.
if that is the risk i have to take, then there is no way to avoid it.

we have entered a stage of choices.
the industry we are going to work in, a small company or a huge MNO, the popular banking and finance industry or the specific area of our own interests.
to get an advanced degree or directly enter the work force.
to stay in this boring small island or get out of here asap.
to stick to the current guy or girl or be beaten by the harsh situation and give it up.
to bet whether this one is our soul make or just an illusion which we create on our own.
to accept the offer or wait for another one to come.

sometimes we need proof and response from the other. someone we just choose to believe and hope for the best.
you never know when is the right time and what is the right thing to do.

I guess life is like a big gambling game, with numerous hands by the table.
you try to guess the cards in their hands. sometimes you get them, sometimes you just are over confident. even sometimes you under estimate yourselves.

then that's life.
I am not going to quit just because I am afraid that the possible results will not be what i expected, or because I may have a better option.

Don't gamble!
Well, then what else can we do.

Get myself a small store

today after a nice happy interview with my future boss, I was taken to a lovely small store in bugis. Did not know Guo was so "literary"...
anyway it's lovely. typical store that we dream for years to have one.
music. books. photographs. drink. cake. and some tables to sit.
First time I have seen such stores in SG.
maybe because i dun really have friends to go find some here.

it reminds me our big plans when we were young... on well younger.
I almost forgot them .
but now i remember.

Desperado

Favorite song lately: desperado---the eagles.

I was organizing my laptop disk the other day. my folder of music was messy.
it took up too much space.
so i listened to every sub folder then delete those songs which no longer interested me.
in the end i deleted no more than 2 sub folders.
I 'd love to keep those old old folders like forever.
they will never get out of fashion.

I messed up my plan.
I could not reach my target yesterday because i came back too late and had a full day class, even Guo persuaded me skip one tutorial..which made me feel guilty till now.

I need to become a PHD to prove that I love school.

ICN

Went back hall for ICN
a lot of feelings were haunting around.
saw a few old people and bunch of unfamiliar face.

Some people say seniors should always come back like a lot of them did so, dance, band, everywhere.
It seems good for bonding, saying oh we have so many alumni.
but. is it really a good thing. what about those freshies who would like to take part in more? if seniors are always there , how many chances left for the new comers?
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Dont look back in anger. I heard you say.
alright.
In the end we just lost a very good friend. it seems not a big deal.

in university how many close friends you have made and how many of them walked away for this or that weird stupid or common reasons.

Life is sometimes a joke.

远走高飞

单曲循环。
It wipes away the crappy feeling of recieving rejection letters.
one after another.
and it is just the start.

I miss those snowy days.
Heard that state college just had the first snow on the homecoming weekend.
omg it's been a year.

Uncertain

So uncertain.
I am a person always with a plan.
but this time, my plan does not work at all.
any plan is useless.
and this is maybe the most important time ever so far in life.
plan does not help. asking does not help. think does not help.
only time will tell.
i am afraid of making mistakes.
But if that is the risk i have to take..then fine.

the one who is supposed to be making things not so uncertain happens to be a person never has a plan...= =“
lol
ok think about it again one year later.

so tired of thinking thinking thinking. planing planing planing.
in the end, all is trash.