IMMORTAL BELOVED

I first got to know Beethoven's love letters through , you know, like everyone, Carrie.
ever thine
ever mine
ever ours

Until just now, I read it again. Its way too beautiful. Love is most perfect when 2 people cannot have each other. Who still write love letters if they are going through real life - all those little fussy stuff every day, grocery shopping, laundry, house keeping, paying the bills, discussions, misunderstanding, ignorance. People tend to forget how great love is after they actually have it all.

Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

I am my own religion

I never thought I was a strong person. I think I am just someone who can deal with my own problems. I cry when I want, I dont think thats a sign of being weak. But I never depress. I have my family, my dear friends and myself to hold me up together.

I dont mean to be offensive to anyone by saying I don't believe in religion. I don't know whether God exists. I don't dare to say anything about God. Sometimes I go to temples and pray too. But no I am not religious. I believe this is a private thing, like your true love to your lover. Only yourself understands how it is like and how much you appreciate the affection. It's true that people want to share the joy and happiness for a kind purpose, but it's just too much. Over sharing your love to your God and over helping others are like to upload photos of you and your lover kissing to Facebook.

It's too public to be holy. At least to me.

That's just what I am thinking. Sometimes I do feel blessed (or lucky i guess) and I am thankful and cherishing what I have now. But I also believe it is not a sin to be not religious. I should be getting what I deserve as long as I am a good person. And I will survive whatever difficulties ahead of me as long as I am tough and brave.