On the move

I feeling like I am on the move all the time for the past 9 years.
From one dorm to another dorm, from one apartment to another apartment, from one country to another country.

I bet young people are like this. We desire freedom, we don't want to settle down. Or simply not ready to commit.
Its Christmas again. New year was once meant to be holiday, good food and hongbao. Now it means much more : a lot of friends in my age are getting married, and quite a few of them chose to do it during holiday season. Which is now.

Photos are all over the place. The smiles on the couple's faces, the beautiful lineup of the bridesmaids, the big white wedding cake and wedding dress.
I feel so happy for them, everything seems perfect - at the same time - same.

I couldn't help but wonder (since when I started to sound like Carrie...) what kind of wedding I will have. Or to be more exact, what kind of wedding I want to have. Then I realize I am even not sure whether I actually would like to have a wedding or not. I do fancy of getting married, being with the man i love for the rest of my life. BUT I hate the idea of wedding. In some sense I feel like Miranda.

You know, some "wise" person once advised the girls that NEVER IMAGINE/DREAM/WISH THAT YOU ARE ONE OF THE CHARACTERS IN SEX AND THE CITY. Well I believe either this is a guy who does not understand women at all or this is a woman who is really fake or never actually watched SEX and the CITY. We never hope to be like the girls in Sex and the City, we really ARE one of them. The whole drama talked about 5 kind of women: sexy, emotional and complicated Carrie, smart, powerful and independent Miranda, self-centered, open and wild Samantha, traditional, forever seeking for true love and good mother Charlotte, and the other women. (LOL) if you are not those " the other women" who are brainless and never think about what happiness is, you must fall in one or more of the categories. Basically I would say every single woman has some of the 4 all together deep down inside.

What is funny is : those 4 women seldom move. They just stay in their favorite city NYC forever. But as time went by, in the 2 movies after the drama, they started to travel. actually a lot of big decisions were made while they were travelling. I do believe its good to move every now and then. A never-changing life numb people, so its hard to see things clear. As you move, you start to reorganize your life, thinking about where is the best destination. You know to get rid of the redundant stuff to save trouble, and you start to realize what is the most important in your life that you have to keep it with you wherever you go.

Its a damn long blog as I keep talking about nonsense. To summarize, I am moving again this weekend to an apartment bigger than all places that I have ever lived. There will be me, a man and a cat. Time to pack.

attached

its dangerous when you are emotionally attached to something, or someone.
We have all been there. only when you are not feeling insecure, then you know you are in the right place, you are with the right one.
For some reason, i have to send my little baby kitten away for a few days and its killing me. Although sometimes he can be such a bad kid, poop everywhere, jump onto the table and knock down the dishes, give you scratches, etc. But i love him. its weird i am so attached to a cat that i only adopted less than 2months ago.

I dont know what else cant really leave us. everything can, everyone one can.
as the ball of emotions rolls, as more friends we have, more attached we are.

Hope time will heal and all we have to do is to remember the great memories and looking forward for a reunion.

Well, I say it. Im just saying.