Officially rejected

I just could not wait for another 24 hours of a call which dunno will come or not.
I called then and heard the news of rejection.
I knew the result already. I knew it.
I know many ppl got bad luck this year for job hunting.
So me is just one of the common unlucky ones.

I know what I want for my life.
I know I want to go home.
I know I dont want to do internship cuz got more important things to do.

but i just feel down because of the the fact that some ppl think I am not good enough.
Yes i am not perfect but i know i am good enough for that project.

Well, I am fine.
life goes on.

and I want to go back to state college. Badly. Eagerly.
I am not going to think too much and just live my current life.
I get it. I will.

怀才不遇！

怀才不遇！
怀才不遇！

阴郁

The day has come

After waiting for 2 weeks.
Finally the Singapore Pools Internship interview is here.
It's the most wanted internship for me.
Market researcher. Buying consumer. Gaming industry.
They will select 2 people out of 4 today.
1/2 - is the probablity high or not.

I dunno why I always do those relax chat with the interviewers like they are just my friends. They are so kind that they laughed because of my lame jokes...So i did not feel that awkward...

Just Hope for the best.

Reading week

I am actually loving my life more and more.
And I wish to see King Kong real soon.

Last day of class in year 3

My lessons of year 3 have officially ended.
2 types of professors I like the most.
the first type is like Mr. T. Young, smart, fun, treat teaching seriously, enhance our thinking ability, friendly and efficient.
the other is like Mr. G. experienced, but not old-fasioned. Cute and cool. no lame jokes. helpful, and still approachable.

I am serioulsy thinking to become a research assistant after graduation.
Oh my.

Mr. H today said in the last lecture today there are many unexpected things happening. He had bad grades when he was in university and thought professor was a stupid job while now he has really become a professor.
no one know what is around the next corner.
life is fun becauses of these unexpected stuff.
for me, a person who always wanna plan ahead. maybe some changes will do me good.

I should stop worrying about the things that are not here yet.

XOXO

OK I have to admit Gossip Girl is such a nonsense, stupid drama that I should never watch.
i guess it's because prison break has not back yet that's why i started to watch GG last night.
and non stop till the time i slept
gosh.
It must end now.

but one thing i have discovered is: I wont be afraid of anything as long as i have PPStream. Loneliness. sadness. depression. or whatever.
gosh i think I can be a person just stay in my room with my little silver forever.

Time to go out.hence i decided to "date" LC for a review session later.
And start reading week officially.

oh well

I finally met Mathew, the American guy from PSU.
We chatted for quite a while, and he speaks good Chinese.
He doubts that whether I really stayed in PSU cuz I did not know the clubs and party places he mentioned, I called "white out" wrongly, I even like the weather there while he hates it the most.
Oh Well.
I guess I dun really experienced the most special part of PSU but it is so special to me. with great people. having great days.

I even started to think about going for a summer program for this coming holiday. I always said I dont want to wander here and there. I sometimes feel I am homeless cuz I am not sure what indeed my home is.
While Sometimes I just wanna go to different places.

Oh Well.
Until someday I can finally settle down with the guy I love and really have a home.
But when.

Last night

I had a dream.

I was back to State College.

I dropped by the little house.

I met Philip. He was busy renovating the house.

I was looking for a toilet. typical dream heh...

then I wanna call LY to tell him I was back.

But I did not have a cell phone.

I did not know what to do.

then I woke up.

One of my seniors got married and took a series of bridal photos.

When its my turn, I wanna take mine at the back of that house.

In the basketball court of the primary school.

With the beautiful sunset glow.

Madagascar

Hmmm...If I looks like Marty...


Then you really look like Alex...SERIOUSLY!

It's small world

Well...I know very few ppl in france and america. seriously.
but i just heard that one of my friends followed his supervisor in France to USA to do some research work and now stay in the same room with my housemate when i was in Penn state.

it's just...unbelievable.

If the world is so small, can i see you somewhere soon?

LOVELVA

Cant believe it has been 10 years already!
such a great voice and dancer.

Treasure Love

After a long chat, someone said, please treasure love.
After so many things happen. I think the belief is still there.

I wish the best for this friend
He is such a nice person.
He is deserved to be happy...

Life is never easy.
Let's face it. with faith.

Plans

I have planned a lot.
So many plans.
exhausted.
I dunno which one will be the final one.
so far i can only put one foot in front of the other.
I cant control.

I wanna run toward it.
I sometimes just cant stand it.
I wanna forget about anything else and go for it.

but i cant. haiz...i am not brave enough. am I...?

But I wont give up.
I have a dream. May it come true.

Drunk

Ok I may believe that ppl tell the truth when they are drunk...wahaha.
yeah. Faith is back.

My leg still hurts after the fall. moreoever i got infection in my eyes.
So went to UHC again to see doctors and get some medicine.
at the clinic i met dingying~
I just simply...miss her!
hehe..chatted a bit and found we are really similar...she dunno how got those injuries and pains as well...dunno how then fall down as well...
Nah....Fate of drummers?

Finals are coming...time flies just so fast..
Time please go faster and faster. I cant wait to graduate.