sg is ..the same

home is so good, in contrast sg is like hell.
the food in canteen got nothing tasty, i even cant watch olympic games online.
life was packed, fyp was driving me mad.
report is due tmr, weird that i feel a bit lost to see the project is going to an end.
maybe i am too used to the regular meeting with prof.gan, maybe the passion of research is still there. it's not a bad thing, isnt it.
went to NTU, met some interesting ppl, played texas holdem for the whole night. it is the first time for me to play with real chips. gambling is not good though it seems i am not a bad player.
no gambling, no drinking, no smoking.
but someone is doing all these 3. i can do nothing about it.

my head is still heavy cuz of not enough sleep and sg cannot be any hotter. it is killing me, killing everyone..

I still confused about my direction. seeing ppl got offer from grad school, seeing ppl got offer of a good job, while i still dunno what i want. Then it is reasonable that i dun have anything. fair enough.

anyone wanna acompany me travelling around the world?

Back Home

It's cold. but it's good to be home.
Remember the talk with Colin the other night over dinner. i decided to make a new year resolution : try someting new every week. at least one new thing that I never did before.
So yesterday , I curled me hair.
it looks weird....very weird..and the first time I think my hair is not long enough.

I am again being confused these days.
I am so afraid the cycle is coming again and ruined my chinese new year and V day.

Cloudy

Just when you think you've got life figured out, Fate throws you a curve ball. Then you realise, life is pain, life is joy, life is hope, life is love, life is hurt, and life is beautiful.

Saw this in his facebook. He is leaving for Australia for further studies. How wonderful is that. I feel bad for missing his last show next friday cuz by then I should be at home already.

6 years. How many things could be changed in this six years.
One can fall in love with this city, one can also get rid of it as soon as possible.

Fate throws a curve ball.

It's a parabola which does not have a close-form with too many parameters.

too complicated to calculate, to model, to estimate.

Last night i was up till late 4am. I was not thinking too much, but thinking about one single question endlessly. no solution.

Everytime I think it becomes clearer, then it starts to fade away.

It is cloudy today, think I still cant swim. shit.

long sleep

Too busy and exhausted these days.

I got tons of stuff to do before going back home for CNY.

Even my days are packed like hell, I always need a few mins to talk.

I am confused when familiar scenes come again.

all over, all over again.

Why there is always a cycle like that. Whenever I thought things were changed, whenever I thought I wouldn't be so lonely, the cycle is back.

I am too tired to fight, to argue, to try to persuade.

I am nice person. I am always a nice person.

Today I went to Anita's lab to play wii, rock band. maybe now I need sth to unload my emotions, like drums, like ktv, like swimming, like martini.

I just want to get a long sleep and do not wake up until the cycle is over and my phone rings.

麋鹿

麋鹿是一个很奇怪的生物

有时候很体贴 有时候很不耐烦

有时候让人感动的稀里哗啦 有时候让人难过的泣不成声

所以我很容易迷路

不知道要怎么做才到出口

路很长 我也想要一盏长明的温暖的灯笼

让这里不是很空 不是很孤单

最近看了好多好多电视剧 看得很晚 看到第二天头痛

只看喜剧 只看皆大欢喜

都是好事多磨 几年几十年的分离和误会

终究会有好的结果

也一定会入戏 相信电视里的就是真的

真不像 22岁的人。

委屈

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