Last. One.

Preparing for my last exam in uni which is tmr morning.
not really in the mood. Everytime I was trying so hard to get an A, the result is always disappointing. NUS grading system is alright, I wont blame it any more. I just hate I am too bad at exams, always make stupid mistakes. Always. Always. God know how many times.
Errrr.
anyway, this module is weird. gonna get it done.
Sometimes i feel i should be emo for another thing going to an end, well, since this module is way too boring and meaningless, i dont feel a thing.

Counting down.

Only one week left for my university life.
As usual, just went to play pools and foosball at student lounge with my best friends. it was so fun, and laughing and memorable, as usual.
I dont know how many times left that we could play like these . 2 of them are going to another country for further study. ppl like me, after entering workforce, no regular holiday, god know when is the next time we can see each other again.
I am so used to have them around. we always have dinner together, hang out together every day. for the recent more than 5 years.
When all of them suddenly are gone , the life in this small island would become so empty.

omg i already feel so lost and started to miss them.

every time I watch the TV series FRIENDS, the scenes are so familiar as if i am one of them. indeed we are one of them, except we are not living together.

天下没有不散的宴席。只希望下一次宴席赶快来。

whats wrong with this world

disasters everywhere.
this world is going insane.
what i hate the most is, sometimes we can prevent such tragedy from happening, we just did not do enough.
it is so helpless to find that we can do nothing
NOTHING at all.
we should have done something.
when they are showing off how advanced our technology devepment is, it is just a slap on the face that we even cant protect our own people from dying.
It's just a earthquake. How difficult it could be to predict it. we even claim that we can predict the economics.

Is money even more important than lives?

make a change

Try this.
Go to bed every day at 10pm and get up at 5:45am.
You will feel the world is different, like me.

I should have waited

The best opportunities always come last.
I may should have waited.
But...nothing to complain. I am the one who accepted the offer and moved on to plan up everything.
Again, my plan sucks, as always.
I have been recieving calls for interviews and wondering why they couldnt be more efficient and have to drag this till now.

I decided to shut my ear and mind up and just stick to what I have now.

也谈毕业

日子越来越近了 作为一个喜欢回首的人 我却要好好的向前看
因为很多事情是不堪回首的 越是回首越是有很多留恋很多遗憾很多的舍不得
最近就是感伤 尤其像现在这么一个外面雷电交加随时可能大雨倾盆的夜晚

我有很多朋友 大学四年最骄傲的就是认识了你们
我曾经有更多的朋友 但是有些因为这样那样的原因已经不怎么联络 甚至陌路
有些是缘分不够 有些事缘分过多然后导致一个自己不想要的结果
anyway 我会很想念你们的。

两情若是久长时 又岂在朝朝暮暮
我知道这个道理 真正的朋友不会因为大家各奔东西了就没有了音讯
我知道这个道理 真正的爱人不会因为距离遥远就彼此放弃
I have faith.
I just hate the feeling of farewell.

不过今天的离别是为了再相聚的喜悦
这个道理我也懂。我马上要去相聚。但是相聚总是短暂。我不知道走的时候会不会又哭的稀里哗啦。
我就是讨厌离别 我就是希望大家每个人都能够永远在一起 即使不是每天见但是我也想知道你们都在不远的地方 转身既是。

高中没了 。 大学也没了。
我不是学生了。Yun说我整个心智还停留在17岁。在某些方面确实是的。
工作场上很虚伪。每次面试我都觉得我变成另外一个人。

人生真的是越来越迷茫 不过这样也好 反正每次我的计划总是烂得很。

settled

it seems nothing needed to worry about now.
then where these worries came from.
I have no idea.

Trouble

I never thought that things couldnt be settled till now.
I have so many issues to bargain with them.
I have so many worries and uncertainties.

I just want to escape.

one step more

15 Apr..
please bless me this is going to be alright as well.
one last step of this thing which I have been planning for long.
Please...

16 months waiting. is it not too much.

The end

The future boss said, it is the end, for you it is in a good way.
I feel released.

I dun really have big plans.
but what I know is, I can now start to plan my little trip.

Dunno where it is going, but the direction is getting clearer and clearer.