Love story

I have been watching a lot of TV series.
Black and White. Silence. Jin Da Ban.
People died. Happiness is so hard to get and too short to last.

I know they are not true love story.
But can i be as crazy as them just once and forget about anything else but love.
People are getting practical and realistics, me too.
Too many worries, too many fears.

我也想做盛月如。

一句老话

突然想起很久很久以前一个人在我本子上写的一句话
你的意志已准备好了 你的脚步也就轻快了

This is so true. 目前之所以觉得脚步沉重或者心情低落 也许都是还没有准备好。
I still need time to get myself ready.

Full of doubts

What if I do sth not traditional.
I tried to make sense.
but sometimes sense is not easy to get.

i DONT KNOW

I have no idea what is my inspiration in life.
I have no idea what I wanna do after graduation.

Can I just take a rest and have fun.

人生目标

我不知道
我想尽孝 也想自由自在 也想呼风唤雨

Nervous

I have bad presentation skills
I can do free chat, but not prepared speech..
I am nervous for tomorrow. seriously. especially i feel I am not fully prepared. Especially the people listenning are professors.
Especially my supervisor is such an expert in this field.

And I booked myself a movie ticket tmr for Avatar. Because I heard tmr is the last day for it and people keep saying good stuff about it. Though i dun really buy it. I never get interested in those movies have nothing but showy effect.
Well, I probably should not judge since I have not watched it yet.
I once promised myself not to watch it. Even all my friends went to watch and I upset them that time.
Alright I am still going, all alone.
I have not went to movie theatre alone for a long time.
It just reminds me of those good days with someone by my side.

Let's see how Avatar is.

sha!

I have met many funny people.

But it will never happen again that the whole large group of funny people getting together again like high school.

I cannot feel like I am 23 already whenever I am with them.

Surviving

Last december was no holiday at all.
Most busy month ever in my 4 year university life.
Job+G+FYP.

yesterday prof Gan asked me. why you take GRE. Why you also working. why 1 year. why why why. He had a lot of whys and i have no good answers for them all. i am in a difficult situation that I cant even figure myself out.

why i have to grow up and make decisions?

Bintan 2 days

This is only my 2nd time I went out of Singapore for holiday. I got a fever and rested one day in Bankok hotel last time. This time I hurt my foot and I had to borrow a wheelchair from hotel. good job. but seriously i love the trip.

These are all my good friend in this boring island.
I have no idea how i am gonna to stand the 5 years without you guys.
I just wanna wish the very best for all my friends. No one knows where we will be in the coming year or 5 years. After out graduation, i am not sure how often we can see each other. We wont be so free to meet up for dinner so easily. we wont be even in the same country.
just hope everyone happy and be who you wanna be in future.

this is my last semester.
I am going to miss my university life so much.

ever

My mom wrote me a letter.
it is very long but every single word of her concern is exactly what i am concerning about.
My most wonderful dream is me and the other most important 4 persons can stay close, close enough for me to see all of them easily without a 12 hours' flight.

Sometimes all we need is a little bit more time.
and a little bit more faith.

I don't where this is going, when it reaches its end.
Let's just hope for the best.

and Y got an car accident today. luckily he just needs to repare the car , nothing happened to himself.
Please stay safe. especially in snowy night.
During the time that I am too far to take care of you, pls do it yourself...
the day will come...though i have no idea when.
god i am sad.

and mom, i wish i can be close to you and dad every day. I know how hard days can be without your only child. I am not a good kid. I chose to fly away.
But I will be back. Just let me sort things out.

Love you all.
I wish 2010 will not be too bad.

Dont worry , be happy

there is enough pressure.
let's see how it goes.
i have to stop being worried.

ily ly.