非常。
I don't know where this takes me to the end.
Being emotional is useless since it cant change the situation anyway.
but I want something that is 100% pure.
I know it is not.
but I imagine it to be.
I cant see the light. the light shows the exit.
It is so messed up.
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
Monday, May 4, 2009
This semester
Actually i was quite happy thoughout the semester.
Live a peaceful life. not busy. no need social.
free and easy. staying at home most of time.
have a lot of time on my own.
happy making phone calls and chatting online.
finally got time to study instead of spending most of it on activities.
What else.
I got allergy.
takes one week to recover.
right after that I fell down on my Bday. on the way to work.
then all the photographers need to wait for me to have rest every half an hour.
how patient they were. I was so thankful.
then for the whole month I almost could not move my body. need to stand up straight and sleep lying on the bed straight.
in the reading week, my allergy flushed around again for 2 days.
stupid exam timetable makes me have 3 exams in one day.
and accidentally that's the day NUS start to take temperature for everyone.
my final exams suck.
for the first sem i study so hard you know.
well. forget about it.
then. I applied a number of internships.
one in the end they chose one out of 3. not me.
another one in the end they choose 2 out of 4 . not me again.
applied korean summer program. rejected.
Penn state professor accepted me to go back for research. but his project got rejected.
Well, we blame the time. blame the market.
whatelse? I don't know.
oh I got GFF as my supervisor. this is only lucky thing for me this semester
he is cute <3
but i have a happy semester . Really.
thanks for being there with me. you make me wanna fight with the routine that I natually accepted.
We should both be a better person. we will.
well well. one last exam tmr and one last internship interview!
Whatever happens, i will have a good summer vacation.
wish you do too.
Live a peaceful life. not busy. no need social.
free and easy. staying at home most of time.
have a lot of time on my own.
happy making phone calls and chatting online.
finally got time to study instead of spending most of it on activities.
What else.
I got allergy.
takes one week to recover.
right after that I fell down on my Bday. on the way to work.
then all the photographers need to wait for me to have rest every half an hour.
how patient they were. I was so thankful.
then for the whole month I almost could not move my body. need to stand up straight and sleep lying on the bed straight.
in the reading week, my allergy flushed around again for 2 days.
stupid exam timetable makes me have 3 exams in one day.
and accidentally that's the day NUS start to take temperature for everyone.
my final exams suck.
for the first sem i study so hard you know.
well. forget about it.
then. I applied a number of internships.
one in the end they chose one out of 3. not me.
another one in the end they choose 2 out of 4 . not me again.
applied korean summer program. rejected.
Penn state professor accepted me to go back for research. but his project got rejected.
Well, we blame the time. blame the market.
whatelse? I don't know.
oh I got GFF as my supervisor. this is only lucky thing for me this semester
he is cute <3
but i have a happy semester . Really.
thanks for being there with me. you make me wanna fight with the routine that I natually accepted.
We should both be a better person. we will.
well well. one last exam tmr and one last internship interview!
Whatever happens, i will have a good summer vacation.
wish you do too.
Saturday, May 2, 2009
this crazy job market
some common situations:
a guy got good statistics academic record. but he just could not get a statistics internship.
and i know those companies who are really recruiting statisticians, the people they finally accepted are those with a lot working experience but a poor academic record.
I don't really know who they are looking for.
It's just unfair.
People with a CAP from 4.3-4.6 is so awkward now . cannot get a job as good as first class honor guys. being treated as a normal 4.0,4.1 ppl or even second lower ones
And people favor singaporeans and PR.
No life For us. SERIOUSLY.
a guy got good statistics academic record. but he just could not get a statistics internship.
and i know those companies who are really recruiting statisticians, the people they finally accepted are those with a lot working experience but a poor academic record.
I don't really know who they are looking for.
It's just unfair.
People with a CAP from 4.3-4.6 is so awkward now . cannot get a job as good as first class honor guys. being treated as a normal 4.0,4.1 ppl or even second lower ones
And people favor singaporeans and PR.
No life For us. SERIOUSLY.
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Officially rejected
I just could not wait for another 24 hours of a call which dunno will come or not.
I called then and heard the news of rejection.
I knew the result already. I knew it.
I know many ppl got bad luck this year for job hunting.
So me is just one of the common unlucky ones.
I know what I want for my life.
I know I want to go home.
I know I dont want to do internship cuz got more important things to do.
but i just feel down because of the the fact that some ppl think I am not good enough.
Yes i am not perfect but i know i am good enough for that project.
Well, I am fine.
life goes on.
and I want to go back to state college. Badly. Eagerly.
I am not going to think too much and just live my current life.
I get it. I will.
I called then and heard the news of rejection.
I knew the result already. I knew it.
I know many ppl got bad luck this year for job hunting.
So me is just one of the common unlucky ones.
I know what I want for my life.
I know I want to go home.
I know I dont want to do internship cuz got more important things to do.
but i just feel down because of the the fact that some ppl think I am not good enough.
Yes i am not perfect but i know i am good enough for that project.
Well, I am fine.
life goes on.
and I want to go back to state college. Badly. Eagerly.
I am not going to think too much and just live my current life.
I get it. I will.
Friday, April 24, 2009
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
The day has come
After waiting for 2 weeks.
Finally the Singapore Pools Internship interview is here.
It's the most wanted internship for me.
Market researcher. Buying consumer. Gaming industry.
They will select 2 people out of 4 today.
1/2 - is the probablity high or not.
I dunno why I always do those relax chat with the interviewers like they are just my friends. They are so kind that they laughed because of my lame jokes...So i did not feel that awkward...
Just Hope for the best.
Finally the Singapore Pools Internship interview is here.
It's the most wanted internship for me.
Market researcher. Buying consumer. Gaming industry.
They will select 2 people out of 4 today.
1/2 - is the probablity high or not.
I dunno why I always do those relax chat with the interviewers like they are just my friends. They are so kind that they laughed because of my lame jokes...So i did not feel that awkward...
Just Hope for the best.
Sunday, April 19, 2009
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Last day of class in year 3
My lessons of year 3 have officially ended.
2 types of professors I like the most.
the first type is like Mr. T. Young, smart, fun, treat teaching seriously, enhance our thinking ability, friendly and efficient.
the other is like Mr. G. experienced, but not old-fasioned. Cute and cool. no lame jokes. helpful, and still approachable.
I am serioulsy thinking to become a research assistant after graduation.
Oh my.
Mr. H today said in the last lecture today there are many unexpected things happening. He had bad grades when he was in university and thought professor was a stupid job while now he has really become a professor.
no one know what is around the next corner.
life is fun becauses of these unexpected stuff.
for me, a person who always wanna plan ahead. maybe some changes will do me good.
I should stop worrying about the things that are not here yet.
2 types of professors I like the most.
the first type is like Mr. T. Young, smart, fun, treat teaching seriously, enhance our thinking ability, friendly and efficient.
the other is like Mr. G. experienced, but not old-fasioned. Cute and cool. no lame jokes. helpful, and still approachable.
I am serioulsy thinking to become a research assistant after graduation.
Oh my.
Mr. H today said in the last lecture today there are many unexpected things happening. He had bad grades when he was in university and thought professor was a stupid job while now he has really become a professor.
no one know what is around the next corner.
life is fun becauses of these unexpected stuff.
for me, a person who always wanna plan ahead. maybe some changes will do me good.
I should stop worrying about the things that are not here yet.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
XOXO
OK I have to admit Gossip Girl is such a nonsense, stupid drama that I should never watch.
i guess it's because prison break has not back yet that's why i started to watch GG last night.
and non stop till the time i slept
gosh.
It must end now.
but one thing i have discovered is: I wont be afraid of anything as long as i have PPStream. Loneliness. sadness. depression. or whatever.
gosh i think I can be a person just stay in my room with my little silver forever.
Time to go out.hence i decided to "date" LC for a review session later.
And start reading week officially.
i guess it's because prison break has not back yet that's why i started to watch GG last night.
and non stop till the time i slept
gosh.
It must end now.
but one thing i have discovered is: I wont be afraid of anything as long as i have PPStream. Loneliness. sadness. depression. or whatever.
gosh i think I can be a person just stay in my room with my little silver forever.
Time to go out.hence i decided to "date" LC for a review session later.
And start reading week officially.
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