I had a bad weekend. both physically and mentally.
is it some kind of punishment?
Sunday, March 20, 2011
Monday, February 21, 2011
Saturday, February 19, 2011
You are the one II
watched this movie yesterday. it said every marriage is a mistake, the difference is that whether you wanna keep the mistake going and live it.
I dont really agree on this. if it is a mistake anyway, why we have to do it.
in the end we just wanna find someone to spend the life with, so we wont die alone.
so, as long as i dun hate being with this person, then no harm doing it.
but if so, whats the difference from being a bunch of friends.
The passion wont be there forever. I know it. not a big deal .
I am emotional nowadays. guess ppl are like this when they are at some changing point.
I remember how it felt when watching the last episode of FRIENDS.
I just miss the time that we were hanging out together all the time . I guess nothing can last forever.
Looking forward to the reunions. there will be a lot of them. I believe there will .
I dont really agree on this. if it is a mistake anyway, why we have to do it.
in the end we just wanna find someone to spend the life with, so we wont die alone.
so, as long as i dun hate being with this person, then no harm doing it.
but if so, whats the difference from being a bunch of friends.
The passion wont be there forever. I know it. not a big deal .
I am emotional nowadays. guess ppl are like this when they are at some changing point.
I remember how it felt when watching the last episode of FRIENDS.
I just miss the time that we were hanging out together all the time . I guess nothing can last forever.
Looking forward to the reunions. there will be a lot of them. I believe there will .
Saturday, January 29, 2011
Alone in the house
All my roommates were off to China today. i am alone in the house.
I feel empty, and a little bit scared.
I guess i am not a loner, never. I sometimes do enoy being alone, having little time with myself and hate the sounds and behaviors of others. But yet, I still wish there are people around whenever I wish I was not alone.
I once stayed in a single room by myself. I sometimes was paranoid that there was someone hiding in the closet and that scared the hell out of me.
The secret of overcominng it is to sleep only when you are really tired, and you will fall asleep before you start to think of those nonsense.
Thats exactly what I am gonna do now.
I feel empty, and a little bit scared.
I guess i am not a loner, never. I sometimes do enoy being alone, having little time with myself and hate the sounds and behaviors of others. But yet, I still wish there are people around whenever I wish I was not alone.
I once stayed in a single room by myself. I sometimes was paranoid that there was someone hiding in the closet and that scared the hell out of me.
The secret of overcominng it is to sleep only when you are really tired, and you will fall asleep before you start to think of those nonsense.
Thats exactly what I am gonna do now.
Monday, January 24, 2011
Fear
I listened to Rock music, I watched American drama, I took a shower, I made myself a cup of fruit tea.
The fear is still there. it refuses to go away.
I am not afraid of losing you, I am afraid of you.
Or i am just afraid that in the end you would break my heart.
I don't know your life and you don't know mine.
what is worse, is the deadly silence. I cant see you, I cant feel you, and now I even cant hear you.
Oh God I need to talk. Hanging up that phone made me exhausted.
I just hope tomorrow is better than today.
But when will this end.
The fear is still there. it refuses to go away.
I am not afraid of losing you, I am afraid of you.
Or i am just afraid that in the end you would break my heart.
I don't know your life and you don't know mine.
what is worse, is the deadly silence. I cant see you, I cant feel you, and now I even cant hear you.
Oh God I need to talk. Hanging up that phone made me exhausted.
I just hope tomorrow is better than today.
But when will this end.
Saturday, January 15, 2011
wants
When I was in primary school, I was described as "shy".
When I was in junior middle school, I was described as "nice", "smart" and "easy going"
When I was in senior middle school, I was described as "quiet" and "self imposed" (totally weird)
When I was in university, I was described as "passionate" (by Chinese friends) and "helpful and always smiling" (by dear hall mates)
always wondering what kind of person I am and what i want.
Recenly I watched a few movies on the growing-up stuff. It feels stupid that I realized I still donno what I want for my life, where my passion is. and Now i am 24, graduated from college and a working adult.
it seems my life is just pathetic as those in the movies.
I am just pathetic as those normal people without dreams.
They always say dreams are the most important things in life, you have to go for it, and then your life is complete.
Qi said I like to keep myself busy. Yes I want to make my life fulfilling.
Yes I do not have an actual goal, but I just wish I can get something every day, no matter its a good time with friends, a movie that makes me cry, some random thoughts come to my mind when i am on train, one hour relax time doing yoga or dancing, a delicious dish I cook for myself or a sweet phonecall to the people I love.
All those little tiny things build up my life. I guess my dream is just to keep living it. as much as I can. laugh more, cry less. enjoy more, stress less. have faith more, doubt less.
When I was in junior middle school, I was described as "nice", "smart" and "easy going"
When I was in senior middle school, I was described as "quiet" and "self imposed" (totally weird)
When I was in university, I was described as "passionate" (by Chinese friends) and "helpful and always smiling" (by dear hall mates)
always wondering what kind of person I am and what i want.
Recenly I watched a few movies on the growing-up stuff. It feels stupid that I realized I still donno what I want for my life, where my passion is. and Now i am 24, graduated from college and a working adult.
it seems my life is just pathetic as those in the movies.
I am just pathetic as those normal people without dreams.
They always say dreams are the most important things in life, you have to go for it, and then your life is complete.
Qi said I like to keep myself busy. Yes I want to make my life fulfilling.
Yes I do not have an actual goal, but I just wish I can get something every day, no matter its a good time with friends, a movie that makes me cry, some random thoughts come to my mind when i am on train, one hour relax time doing yoga or dancing, a delicious dish I cook for myself or a sweet phonecall to the people I love.
All those little tiny things build up my life. I guess my dream is just to keep living it. as much as I can. laugh more, cry less. enjoy more, stress less. have faith more, doubt less.
Friday, January 14, 2011
From some movie
Maybe the truth is there's a little bitof loser in all of us, you know?
Being happy isn't having everythingin your life be perfect.
Maybe it's about stringing togetherall the little things...
... like wearing these pants...
... or getting to a new level of "Dragon's Lair"...
... and making those countfor more than the bad stuff.
Maybe we just get through it...
... and that's all we can ask for.
Being happy isn't having everythingin your life be perfect.
Maybe it's about stringing togetherall the little things...
... like wearing these pants...
... or getting to a new level of "Dragon's Lair"...
... and making those countfor more than the bad stuff.
Maybe we just get through it...
... and that's all we can ask for.
Wednesday, January 12, 2011
get over it
I finally realize that if you wanna get over something, trying to avoid it is not gonna help.
You cant run from it forever it. eventually you will meet again.
Treat it with a peaceful heart.
Maybe one day, you will find it has become an important part of your life, but nothing else.
No news from US yet. I am panic.
You cant run from it forever it. eventually you will meet again.
Treat it with a peaceful heart.
Maybe one day, you will find it has become an important part of your life, but nothing else.
No news from US yet. I am panic.
Monday, January 10, 2011
New Blog
I started a new Chinese blog @ sina. I can't stand reading my own stuff.
These years in SG made my Chinese bad like hell....damn it
and my English is still bad as before.
* pissed *
These years in SG made my Chinese bad like hell....damn it
and my English is still bad as before.
* pissed *
Sunday, January 9, 2011
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