too little sleep

Today is holiday for me. No need to go work.
But my head is so heavy - lack of sleep.
I had a terrible terrible dream last night. I woke up and cried my heart out.
I forgot how long it lasted till i fell asleep again.
I decided to stay awake instead. I cant afford to go back to that dream again.

I blame myself. I am halfly responsible for that dream.
The evil side of me wish it come true. though it is damn wrong.

I should have better control of my head.

one and the only

You calm me down.
with one sentence or two.
I feel safe around you. no one else ever gave me that.
Lucky me.

A feeling that cannot be mentioned

I tend to have this kind of feeling whenever i come back from a trip.
especially a lovely fun happy and unforgettable trip.

I feel like going out again. so much.
Or else, my heart is so empty. I wanna be with those people all the time.
every day. forever.

the fact that it is not going to happen is sad.
I am an emotional person from the very beginning. This 2 years I have become a happy person. I think less and I stay thankful.

but today. I feel so empty.
Can someone promise me that no matter what, we will still be together. we will be friends for the rest of our lives.

make a wish

we lit this up at Patong beach @ new year countdown party and made a wish.

How I wish it comes true.

all those uncertainties are killing me. I feel emo and unsafe.

I have no one to talk to. I even dun wanna talk to myself.

Emo - first working day of the new year

Back from Phuket re-visit last night.
Its a nice trip. a lot of laughters and fun.
We found the same stores that we went last time, the old good memory just kept flashing in my head.
But still, Phuket is different from 3 years ago. We are different.

I was getting emo on the taxi to airport yesterday. I always feel Phuket is like an escape, escape from reality, choices, and responsibility. Pathetically I am still afraid of those even that i am now a 24 year old lady.

I remember last time we walked on the street in phuket, some Thai ppl asked us whether we were spending annual leave from same company. We were joking around that how old we looked, but now... time just flied. like hell.

Where we will be 3 years later.
I feel like crying. I have absolutely no idea why.

2011

It is really time to let it go.
end this from where it started.

Lets see how 2011 will be like.

red eyes

My new year wish: please please save my red eyes.

Hustle

First rule of the con - You can't cheat an honest man, because an honest man doesn't want something for nothing.

read it somewhere

I hope that you have been living a life that you are proud of.
If not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

PC games

People say girls can never understand why guys love playing computer games so much. some say because games provide them a virtual hence perfect world which allows them to be the person they cant be in real world.
Yun said it is because life is so boring, he needs something to deal with, to relax, to keep himself entertained.
Whatever. I just hope I can be the one to replace those games.

Some day.

oh this weekend I made 炸酱面。 I am a fine cook now. Sometimes I am confused by those expensive dishes in high class resturant. they just make cooking complicated and taste more weird.
I am LC, I admit it.
And seriously I do not care.