年末

似乎年末的时候时间都会变得慵懒起来
节日将近 各个地方的打折也开始了 人们奔走在大街上或者旅途中
年末很多人要把没有请完的假期用光 今天你明天我的On leave

日子也就这样一天一天一年一年的过

哦昨天做的土豆烧牛肉 今天蛋同学炖鸡汤

周末也就这样一个一个的过去了

Cooking

I have been cooking these weeks. One reason is to save money and to eat more veggie at a much lower cost, the other is my cooking really tastes better than the hawker centre downstairs.

I start to understand why people say cooking is a lifestyle. u cook with the love of life.

My life is getting better. I usually felt i was not a traditionally good girl as in I couldnt cook, I couldnt be a housewife. It is not that I wanna be a housewife, its that I should have the ability to do anything. I can earn money, and i can also take care of a family.

Now i think I have accomplished that. I am happy with myself.

Lets pray life goes on as I have planned.

hate

Some bad memory just suddenly hit my head from a picture in facebook.

it just made me sick.

I will keep things balanced but something is just too hard to go away because it is just too disgusting.

Sick. Sick. Sick.

Especially just after I had a wonderful weekend staying at home and enjoying my time.

TGIF Again!

Friday is supposed to be nice.
But today is not so.

We deserve laughters, not tears.
I know I cry a lot. Thats because I cant hold back tears.
But it feels so different when seeing other's tears.
I hope everyone can be happy in the end , just like hope I do.

I got so many things await to be done...

I dont really talk to people about my work. But i was so pissed today that I have to say it out: BNP AUS is stooooooooooopid.
It may sound rude but they totally deserve it. I cant get things done properly everytime when dealing with them . Not even once.
Fullstop.

桃源人

记得以前玩三国杀的时候 我不怎么喜欢这个游戏又不愿意扫了朋友们的兴 于是就号称桃源人 按部就班的出牌 其他的与我无关

就好象几天前的那个晚餐 闷着头吃我的面 抬起头来的时候始终是一脸茫然 他们说的什么我似乎突然都听不懂了 或者根本不愿意去听
问起我 就是远离八卦 珍爱生命

慢慢的不想笑的时候就不会勉强自己去笑
更何况 我确实听不出其中好笑的桥段

张三李四 他们如何 和我有什么关系

自己的事情尚且还焦头烂额 在乎的人失踪了 不在乎的人就算就在我旁边绕来绕去的又有什么分别

我只要真心的朋友 不要八卦式的问候 更何况并不是每个人都愿意和别人分享自己的一切

我越来越喜欢做一个桃源人 因为心里期待着一个不久会到来的桃源 为着这个桃源我可以不要那片铁打的江山 但是 我怎么可以确定桃源是真的存在 还是会让我撑着竹筏找来找去无功而返呢

所以至少给我一个可以连接的途径 一点光 而不是漆黑一片

need someone

I need someone who i dont have to worry that someday he would just suddenly disappear.

it is killing me.

Chacing pavements

I've made up my mind,
No need to think it over,
If i'm wrong I aint right,
No need to look no further,
This ain't lust,
This is love but,
If i tell the world,
I'll never say enough,
Cause it was not said to you,
And thats exactly what i need to do,
If i'm in love with you,

I'd build myself up,
And fly around in circles,
Wait then as my heart drops,and my back begins to tingle
finally could this be it

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

homesick

Back home and left home again. this made me even more homesick.
When can i really stop travelling. When can i be with the loved ones every single day. when can i never ever need to deal with goodbyes.

its ok. I just dont like it.

C**

i am not sure what i am thinking. I followed the crowd---i registered C** program exams. The one thing many people did, which i felt quite stupid about it. It could just help u get a job. The other day one CFA was asking me what is the probability of the mean +/- 1 std deviation.
well, ppl all forget stuff. thats the point. CFA cant help u become better, it just let others think u are better.

I didnt give a damn but now i paid 1500 dollars for it.

I promised myself to spend 3 hours study today. and I didnt. Its time to sleep.

人类的心是个无底洞。

push

Why do ppl have to push me to give an answer.
I have not made the decision. Have not is HAVEN NOT.

If you don't like to live a free and easy life, I do.
I want to follow my heart. I want to see how it goes.

I was once that kind of rational girl and i hate her.

Be patient. You will know what to do when its time.

And why people cant understand that there are different kind of beliefs, opinions, and ways of thinking?

and lastly, why they think I am not properly thinking for myself and I am too silly to get the big picture ?

Hello. I am going to be 24. I gave myself a life till now. I got a job, a bunch of good friends, smart head and capability to handle almost everything. I was hurt, but I stood up again.

SO stop worrying about me pls. it does not help... the onlything i neede and need and will need is to support me when it is dark, to encourage me when I am down, to stand by my side even sometimes it is no one else to blame.