Tonight. At the monent. I miss them as hell/

休息休息 准备准备 小黑小银 大富翁 猴子 暗棋五子 刷墙 搬家 火锅 意大利面 BBQ 圣诞灯 格斗 锻炼闷痒 飙高音 迈克杰克逊 粉红泡泡 花生啤酒二十四

不纠结了

终于解决纠结已久的事情
心中大石落地
老妈果然不是盖的 太强大了
不愧是我老妈～娃哈哈

Just

You do it to yourself,
and that's what really hurts.

change

I dont really know the ppl now.
I miss the old ppl.
I miss junde I miss dingying I miss siewjin I miss denyse I miss Marcus.
Tonight cleaned Band Room with Eng Seng, put up all the posters again. They dropped down dunno when but ppl just left them in the corner.
I still remember in my year 1, that day we rearranged the room and did clean up and put up all the poster together. we even hung the guitar up on the wall too.
We went out to KTV and back in the mid-night.
We suppered in bandroom and got "drunk".
The JD bottle is still in the bandroom , so memorable.
We did panda makeup for our rockfest.
We practiced so often that every song was great.
We got so high on the stage, we jumped together (well, though i cant jump cuz i was on drum. lol)
We made the small little video for jd. I even cried for his leaving. haha..I was so young then...
We gathered many old band ppl together and supper, some of them got married already. Once in KE band, always in KE band
It was so fun.

Maybe it's not their problem.
Maybe I was not around for so long.
Maybe my passion is not there already.

I think all those golden days will just stay in my heart. but they will never come back.
原来 the song, "summer of 69' " is really true.

I cannot keep comparing.
I have much more things to do.
Just hope the last rockfest will go smooth. and hope all the juniors have fun in band now and in the future. and find the bonding back.

感慨万千

看了一篇文章
特别沉重
如果发生在我身上我根本不知道怎么面对
憎恶左右摇摆
憎恶多情懦弱

我想起了很多。
All those unhappy memories.
Doubts. Questions. Explanations. Facts.
Shit.

走钢索的人

走钢索的人
不害怕牺牲
只求一点安稳

The future is still unclear.

Is it too much I am asking for.

心神不宁

焦躁。
等待。
去处。

I wont do it to myself again

Baxk to SG

It's an unfamiliar city.
hot and wet.
I miss state collge, it is warm.
I am not used to everything...I got on the car at the wrong side, I cant get sleep because of hot weather, i hate those insects, i hate singlish, i sometimes speak it though, I dont like talking to many ppl at the same time and i think hall is noisy.

I am used to the quiet life.

Handphone is down.
I sometimes I feel I have left happy valley for a long time, but it's just 2 weeks...

Things are so different. People are different. I am different.

Can I go back.